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For some reason, I just haven’t been in the mood to write much of anything. I guess it is a bit transparent with the haphazard way I’ve been posting lately.
I’ve been trying to muddle through telling myself how what I do is important and could be helpful to other people who have a Work at Home Business. But, lately, it seems I am just treading water. Running a Blog Carnival & providing helpful reads on Sundays and posting something I find in my surfing around the internet is just fill for what I should be doing.
To what purpose? It just seems that the losses are far outpacing the gains. It’s not about money, but a Lot more Personal.
Some of you may know that I lost my Mom on December 13, 2006. Two weeks before my Fathers birthday 12/25 which is Christmas Day and a big day in my family. Now Christmas is not high on my list of fun things anymore.
And I lost my Pop on March 20, 2007, Five days after MY birthday and Three days before what would have been my Mom’s Birthday. And it just happened to be 13 weeks to the day of my Mothers death. Birthday’s pretty much suck anymore, they just seem to remind me of my own mortality.
Just this past April, we lost K’s father (his birthday was in April). He and I weren’t close by any stretch of the imagination, but we both had to deal (and still are) with all the problems cropping up with his estate and her brother just happens to be fighting the Will for good measure.
This has all been quite taxing on our very souls. And it all seems to be so futile. Work your whole life to what end? A contested Will? Holiday’s that hold no meaning anymore? Families spread far and wide?
Anyway, I think I need to take a little time off. Not a vacation, more of a sabbatical. Just to recoup. My head has been spinning for a while now, I need to get my balance back.
No idea how long it could be, hopefully not too long. I will continue the Carnival and Weekly Helpful Reads, but I have no idea when I may be back on a regular schedule of writing.
Thanks to all of you who have been there throughout this ordeal (and you know who you are). I hope it’s not too long before things settle down and I can get back to Writing.
I’ll keep you posted.
Joe
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Dear Joe,
I am one of your rss readers. Not over 50 yet, so your blog does nog depress me
. My dad passed away two years ago, my grandmother last year. They were two of the most important people for me. Their passing is a loss, but it also has been a gain to have them in my life for such a long time. What I’ve learned from them will stay with me for all of my life and in that way they stay with me for as long as I live. I wish you all the best with your sabbatical and hope to see you here soon again. Take care.
The most important thing you have is your own health and wellbeing, so take the time you need, and take care of yourself. We’ll miss you, but – as Catharina said – we’ll look forward to seeing you again soon.
Hey Catharina,
Thanks for your kind thoughts, I agree that losses of important family members can also be a gain in good memories. That’s the way I remember my parents too, but I have to clear my mind and put things back into perspective.
And thanks for subscribing to the feed, I may not be here as much, but I WILL be around.
Hey Lucy,
My physical health is Ok, it’s my wandering mind that seems to be the problem these days. Thanks for being a really valuable part of this community, and I’m not just saying that, I really mean it.
Hope not to be gone too long.
Sorry to hear what you’ve been going through, and hope some time away will be rejuvenating. You’ve earned it.
Joe -
Sounds to me like you’re struggling with depression. There are a lot of misconceptions about depression. It doesn’t mean you’re “sad” so much as you’re rudderless, without motivation, feeling “why bother”.
Depression is not a defect, it is not a character flaw, it is nothing to hide or ignore. Depression is an illness, a chemical imbalance brought on my heredity, personality, stress, grief, and major changes.
Fortunately the health care industry has learned to deal with depression, through a mixture of pharmacology and therapy. I don’t know to what extent it can be cured, but it can be put into remission. It is worth at least speaking with someone to get an objective opinion.
Hey Debra,
Thanks, that’s what I’m hoping for. Maybe when I get back we’ll have another contest you can join in on.
Hey Jon,
That pretty much describes me these days (rudderless, without motivation, feeling “why bother”). I’m hoping that a little time off will put me back on the right track. I appreciate you thoughtfulness and will think long and hard about what you said. Thanks.
Sorry to hear you are not feeling well Joe. Will you be attending the Pod camp in Philly next weekend?
Joe -
Time certainly can help, particularly for a funk that was largely event-driven. Still, a little external help won’t hurt.
Hey Adam,
Thanks. I doubt I’ll make it to the conference, but ya never know.
Jon,
I’ll try the time off & talk to some good friends, hopefully that will be enough to get me back on track.